Note to Self: look for boring

"Who am I willing to take the reeking garbage out for and clean out the gross muck ponding at the bottom of the fridge? Who am I willing to listen to instead of talk at? Who am I willing to hold as they grow older and realer? Who am I willing to die a bit more for every day? Who am I willing to make heart-boring years with? Who am I willing to let bore a hole into my heart?"

An excellent article from Huffington Post, read it here. 

Looking to the New. Looking to the Future.

It's been a while friends; and there is much to be shared and much to be learned in the upcoming months. There is a lot of new going on, and it will be shared, but in good time. I'm looking to revamp this blog space and take it in a new direction - a better direction. When I find out what that is I'll share about it. For now, this is my thinking space as I take a new look at blogging.

Pho-o-toes. Life in color.

  

 Because life in New England during the fall is colorful. And it is so very much fall here now, and craziness. Ergo, these photos are randomly assembled and very much not organized. :) Enjoy!

 World's largest corn maze madness. Friends. Fall. Cold. Free food. Fat Fridays. Being an athlete. Team. People in Massachusetts still can't park. Starbucks. Surprise visit. Avocados from California. Causually drinking out of a gallon water jug. Team struggles. More food. Life's good.

Clearly not the most well organized post, but .... I don't have a but. Just enjoy the craziness.

just one of THOSE days.

Just one of THOSE weeks?

Our power went out in our room. We have no electrical outlets. We found out our RA neglected to put in a work order.

The food in our fridge spoiled.

My bright orange car was hit. It was parked completely within the lines. I have to take it in for an estimate and then leave it there for a while.

I have been off in practicing volleyball. I feel like I am not quite sure how to play anymore.

I keep mixing up Spanish and Italian.

I just got a massive pen stain on my shirt. The washers are full.

300+ mealpoints are missing from my student account. I don't know if I will be able to get them back.

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"So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal." - 2 Corinthians 4:16-18.

Okay G-d. It's one of THOSE weeks. A week where I get to grow. A week where I have to look a little harder to find the good in life. It's a week where I need to look forward to the unseen and focus less on the seen, because things that are the seen are transient.

the start of something new.

hello interweb world. it's been a while.

I can't say that I'm really ready to get back to blogging, but I'm a lot more ready than I was a month ago. A month ago was Israel and Jordan, and craziness, and decisions, and madness spinning and spinning. A month ago I was across the world, both literally and figuratively. A month ago I was not ready to face real life again.

A lot has changed in a month. The seas have calmed a little bit, I am back at school.

That is something that I could not confidently say a month ago.

I am now a student athlete.

That is something that I thought I would never be able to say again. A month ago I wasn't even sure that I could say that.

But a lot has changed in a month.

I am enjoying being back at school. At times the differences - already - between this year and last hit me, and I pause and wonder at what is to come. In many ways this year is quieter for me. My classes are not overwhelming, I do not have to make new friends, my schedule is consistent. I like this. But I am not a creature of habit. I tell myself I like routine and everything to be in order, I think this is a lie. I like change. If there aren't changes in life I get bored. So sometimes I have to tell myself to be satisfied with this life were everything is simply good right now. To enjoy the easy times because there will be storms ahead. So then I sit back and try a new concept in college - relaxation time. Enjoyment.

I think maybe a secret to happiness is learning how to be satisfied in every situation.

I'm still learning that.

But here's to the start of something new, because, to me, it is obvious that a new chapter in my life has begun.

Because I am not the same person as I was a year ago.

Because I am not even the same person as I was a month ago.

Because now I am more than I was then, and because now I am just the tinniest bit closer to the human being G-d is willing me to become.

So here is to the closing of a chapter of my life. It may be a little while before I open the next one fully, but for now, I sit and I wait. I try to be content and satisfied, and for now, it's working.

Sabbatical.

This is my sabbatical from blogging.

Not that I have been doing much of it recently anyways, but I need a break from a lot of things right now. So this is my sabbatical; from blogging, from life. I'll be back soon, in full force, so don't click that unfollow button just yet. Sometimes life just requires a little down time.

Until then, shalom. 

Home. Yet Again.

It's hard to believe that I've been on the other side of the world yet again, and that I'm back home now.

Sometimes I wish I could spend 40 days in the wilderness like Jesus did and marvel at its utterly bare, continuous, beautiful self.